tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post4776753196825400117..comments2024-02-06T04:06:10.089-06:00Comments on Dear Stevie...: Big QuestionsKristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05292279414919447049noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-43261982048604605192010-07-26T20:50:10.266-05:002010-07-26T20:50:10.266-05:00I so could have written this. At times I still don...I so could have written this. At times I still don't know what the point in praying is. But Ido it. Even if its a simple thank you. <br /><br />(((hugs)))Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-71764330140870053232010-07-17T10:24:24.381-05:002010-07-17T10:24:24.381-05:00Why shouldn't we pray? Do we not believe that ...Why shouldn't we pray? Do we not believe that we our children of our Heavenly Father? Do we not believe that he created us? Do we not believe that when we die we will see his face? We speak with our Fathers here on Earth. Why then should we live our lives without ever speaking to God? Praying to Him? Letting him into our lives?<br /><br />We are His children, He loves us. Just as we love our own children. More even.<br /><br />Our Father in Heaven IS all-powerful. He can and does perform miracles. He is all-knowing. Why then do we doubt Him? He knows what is best for each of his children. He sent his son Jesus Christ into this world to suffer and die for all mankind and through the atonement of Jesus Christ we can all have the opportunity to live with our Father in Heaven and all our loved ones for eternity.<br /><br />I too have experienced the loss of a precious baby girl. It is the most agonizing thing I have ever gone though. I think about her every day. The only thing that has kept me sane and alive is my testimony that families are forever. I know I will see her again, I know that you will see your sweet Stevie again. <br /><br />I am LDS, a "Mormon". We know that this life on Earth is not all there is. There is life after death. <br />I would encourage you to visit Mormon.org to learn more about what we believe. I can tell you beyond a shadow of a doubt that I know God hears our prayers. We don't always get the answers we want or expect. But that does not change his love for us. <br /><br />I would also encourage you to read a book called "Angel Children" it was written by a lady named Mary V. Hill. Some of the things said in that book really helped me deal with the loss of my daughter. I believe that you can find it online, try searching at Deseretbook.com, or SeagullBook.com It is a quick read and very insightful. <br /><br />I came across your blog after reading the Sullengers blog. I have really enjoyed what you have to say. It is very heartbreaking to read your posts because I have felt so many of the same emotions that you have. I think of my daughter every day and always will. You will always think if yours too. <br /><br />I hope what I have written will be of some use to you. You seem like a wonderful person.<br />~NatalieNatalienoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-74732796431725212592010-07-03T16:03:11.801-05:002010-07-03T16:03:11.801-05:00Hi,
I think it's great you're doing a bl...Hi, <br /><br />I think it's great you're doing a blog and getting so much support from friends, family, and even strangers. Your blog is gaining popularity and you have the ability to help tons of people affected by this difficult experience. <br /><br />I know you didn't ask for advice, but I'm taking a risk here and I say it in love. <br /><br />Try not to lean too much on your own understanding, or other's support, or spend too much time keeping busy by the blog, etc. I say that because I don't want you to miss out on an opportunity to pour your heart out to God and experience the start of an authentic relationship with him- one that I sense you are longing for. Who wouldn't want deeper peace, meaning, and contentment?<br /><br />I just feel like your head has to be spinning after getting so many different opinions on such big questions. <br /><br />So my advice-- search for the truth by calling on God and searching your own heart-- instead of getting jaded or overwhelmed by everyone else's opinions. (I only speculate that you may be, because I know I've been when I've asked the same question to too many people). Take care!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-77540957078463979652010-07-03T09:17:43.497-05:002010-07-03T09:17:43.497-05:00Kristin- I haven't experienced your loss, but ...Kristin- I haven't experienced your loss, but I've experienced great loss and suffering in my own life. I sure don't have all of the answers, but here's what I've come to understand more confidently then ever before. There is a God. He made us, and loves each of us intimately and personally. He is intimately aquainted with pain and suffering, and bears our suffering with us. Jesus' own mother, Mary, went through incredible pain and suffering watching her own son's cruel death. She, too knows our pain and grief, with a mother's heart. Suffering came into the world because of sin, not because of God. Heaven is where there will be no more pain, death, tears, sorrow. As humans, we're going to experience all of this here on earth. All of us in different ways. We can use our suffering to learn the lessons God wants us to learn, and to be more caring and compassionate towards others. We can unite our sufferings with those of Christ, who loved us enough to endure all he did so we could live with him forever in Heaven. For me, prayer during these most difficult times has been to help me not be separated from God, to have the power and strength to endure all that is going on, and carry the cross I've been given to carry. I will say, that although all of my suffering and grief haven't gone away- God has never left me and has given me His stregth to go through what He's asked me to go through. It's very clear that I'm not doing this on my own. I think He wants me to be dependent upon Him, and not rely on myself. I don't know if any of this has been helpful- I pray it is, and I'll pray for you and your family. Blessings!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-78420289770113246672010-07-02T15:21:42.666-05:002010-07-02T15:21:42.666-05:00Kristin
I delivered my daughter Abigail Eden into...Kristin<br /><br />I delivered my daughter Abigail Eden into the arms of Jesus April 13, 2010 at 15 wks 2 days. Grief stinks. Grief steals our joy. <br /><br />Prayer works, but with that said I know those thoughts...I had them to. But God loves me so much and has never left my side. He loves you too! He loves your precious Stevie! <br /><br />I pray you can feel peace, not peace that your baby died but peace that there is a God who loves you and is carrying through this journey.<br /><br />My prayers are with you!<br /><br />Jen<br />@jenchic <br />jenchic.blogspot.comJenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16598379132557699798noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-12453508181663864772010-07-01T16:01:38.958-05:002010-07-01T16:01:38.958-05:00Violet, You said "But he (God) is not all-pow...Violet, You said "But he (God) is not all-powerful." God IS all powerful. Just to clarify, this is what Christians believe- followers of Jesus Christ- which I *think* Kristen is as far as her religious preference...(She'll have to correct me if I'm wrong). Kristen, I don't pretend to know the answers to this and struggle with the same thing. But, I do know the peace you want can only come from God. Read "I don't have enough faith to be an athiest"- it's amazing. And keep asking the questions- and trying to get answers- don't give up. God is here!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-19899345051043279422010-06-29T15:01:39.289-05:002010-06-29T15:01:39.289-05:00Wow, those are some tough questions. You made me t...Wow, those are some tough questions. You made me think today. I posted what I believe the answers to your questions are on my latest blog. Praying for you and your husband. Hugs!Jenniferhttp://www.elisvalley-perfectlove.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-72223342524858248262010-06-29T07:29:29.045-05:002010-06-29T07:29:29.045-05:00i believe prayer works. it is a mystery and yet.....i believe prayer works. it is a mystery and yet... i have two babies in my lap, born at 27w, who are healthy and i have no explaination except prayer. why did God give us a decade of infertility? why did I have 3 miscarriages? why did I birth three second trimester babies who lived mere moments? i dont know. i cant say that it is so babies 7 and 8 could make it... that they made the pain worth it. all i know is that i wouldnt give any of my children back. i am grateful for every single second, even though they cause me heartache in my joy. <br /><br />if i were to stand before God and God offered me either the life i have or one where i only knew two of my children, i'd choose the one i have now. i can't imagine not having even those few moments.<br /><br />sending hugs...Michelehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17681333723382119281noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-11189636800477137492010-06-28T15:09:20.333-05:002010-06-28T15:09:20.333-05:00Thanks for your post Kristin, it helped me get som...Thanks for your post Kristin, it helped me get some of my feelings sorted out (and written out on my blog too)carhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11393089450621191821noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-82768661098362653092010-06-28T13:47:20.828-05:002010-06-28T13:47:20.828-05:00I prayed every night that Jacob would be healthy. ...I prayed every night that Jacob would be healthy. When I found out that Jacob had died, my minister came in. He said that it was okay to be mad at God. I said that I was and that I prayed every night for Jacob. How can I ever pray for the next baby when Jacob died. I know all of our prayers aren't answered, but this didn't make me trust God anymore. In fact, it makes me think that I will be jinxing the next baby if I do the same thing I did for Jacob. <br /><br />But maybe God couldn't do anything to save Jacob. Maybe he made the whole experience as easy as possible for me. Maybe we would have found out at an upcoming ultrasound that there was something wrong with his body and my husband and I would have had to make a terrible decision - let him live and suffer or terminate the pregnancy (I don't know if this would have been the case, we haven't got the autopsy results back get). I was at my doctor's office when I found out. I didn't start having contractions at work, have to go to the nearest hospital, have a doctor I didn't know, wait forever in the ER etc. I had excellent nurses who really seemed to care (as did my doctor). Almost all of my family was able to come to the hospital as soon as I called them and one of my sisters who lives in NY was able to come, got here safely etc. Then I found the support board at BBC, I was put in touch with a woman who lives near me, lost a baby at 7 months and who talked to me for hours. I found out how many people cared about me through letters, visits, calls etc. I believe that losing Jacob has made our family even closer and really makes us appreciate every day that we have. Now we really see how things can turn from great to bad in a second. Maybe that is God working. <br /><br />I don't know. I'm still angry that Jacob was taken. I wouldn't want this to happen to anyone, but why does the drug-addicted mother keep delivering baby after baby, but the mothers here who were so careful, took every precaution and loved their babies from the second they were conceived and could have provided their children with a wonderful life, lose them?<br /><br />I wish I had some answers for you, but I don't.Danahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12860497122946287983noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-62519003572347715902010-06-28T13:09:15.363-05:002010-06-28T13:09:15.363-05:00Semi-lurker here, and I have the same view point a...Semi-lurker here, and I have the same view point as you do, so I have nothing helpful to add. I just feel like it accomplishes nothing but it does help people feel better. The "power of prayer" is rather hit or miss, and it's never appealed to me personally.TheAmandanatorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05253003835516580064noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-80157307429012350132010-06-28T12:25:14.235-05:002010-06-28T12:25:14.235-05:00I am stopping by your blog for the first time. I a...I am stopping by your blog for the first time. I am so sorry for your loss. Your blog is beautiful.Three Cats and a Babyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16757969648902689785noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-70415557276674950452010-06-28T11:16:42.037-05:002010-06-28T11:16:42.037-05:00Kristin,
I am a pediatric ICU nurse and see traged...Kristin,<br />I am a pediatric ICU nurse and see tragedy on a daily basis. I watch parents pray over their children for days, weeks, and months on end begging God to save their precious loved one. I watch and my heart breaks because very often I know that their baby has no chance for survival. I know it's only a matter of time before that baby will die and their lives will be shattered. And often, I am right.<br /><br />Yet similar to what you said, I have seen some children who, by some miracle, survive. I have seen the families who have their prayers answered, their babies recover, and live full lives. <br /><br />I don't know why some live and some die. I don't know why some hearts break and some heal. But I will tell you, I have felt God present in both situations. I have seen God hold those grieving families, I have seen him wrap his arms around them while they cry. I have also seen him share the joy of recovery and new life.<br /><br />I used to have a negative attitude about death. My own mother died when I was 16. But being a nurse has changed my perspective. I don't know how to explain it, but I know there is a higher power who is there for us when we live and when we die. And he holds those around us who are sad about it. You might never get the answers to the questions you are asking, but I know that someday you will find peace!<br /><br />AmandaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-62742120756116869562010-06-28T10:09:23.878-05:002010-06-28T10:09:23.878-05:00Hi Kristen, as one of your lurkers!! here is what...Hi Kristen, as one of your lurkers!! here is what I am thinking at the time. I am an avid prayer. I lost my son on April 13th. This is something I struggled with as well. Don't know if I have any answers but here's what I'm thinking...<br /><br /><br />I pray because it gives me a sense of calm, peace. I pray like I'm talking to my Father. I do KNOW not believe that there is a God and that prayer does work. Not always. That's the tough part.<br /><br />Yes God can make miracles happen and he does. He gave me my son to carry for 17 weeks. He took a little sperm and a little egg and gave me a baby to love for 17 weeks. I don't know why other things are selective, some babies are saved and some aren't. Why do crackheads have babies like rabbits and I lose my son? I don't know the answer to that.<br /><br />Does God have a plan. I don't know and I hate to hear that "it was God's plan" I don't think it's God's plan that we lose our kids. That's not his work. He loves us and would not want this grief for us. I don't know why it happens but we live in a world where death exists. That wasn't God's plan. But here we are and it sucks.<br /><br />Does God get credit for the good and bad? Yes and no. Just like I have to take responsibility for some of the bad choices I've made I also fully recognize some of the good choices I made. Not that I'm saying we in any way caused our child's loss but just in general. <br /><br />I think what I'm saying might actually cause more questions than answers but as a Christian who lost their baby even though I prayed for this little guy...I'm asking myself the same things and trying to find the answers too.Elainehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08091097457612359686noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-90240555753710432632010-06-28T10:07:54.380-05:002010-06-28T10:07:54.380-05:00Wow--thanks everyone! You gave me a LOT to think a...Wow--thanks everyone! You gave me a LOT to think about and try to process! :)Kristinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05292279414919447049noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-76484824551281789312010-06-28T09:51:50.599-05:002010-06-28T09:51:50.599-05:00I guess what helps me figure out "prayer"...I guess what helps me figure out "prayer" is that I just never ask for stuff. I only praise him for being so big and awesome and for creating things with such beauty. I decided that God doesn't "owe" me anything and that I should be in awe of his abilities and not ask for anything more than what I have--no matter what. It was just easier for me to handle when bad crap would always happen despite what I would pray. I've decided that it's probably not the best approach, but it's the one I tend to use. It may be a "cop out" but it helps me feel better about "unanswered prayers".. I just assume that God doesn't owe me anything, especially no explanations. He is forever faithful and I could never be. Not sure if that's explained right, really.. but it's what I use as my justification for the crap life throws at me that never ends up with an explanation. I like to think that he just set things in motion and doesn't intervene. Things happen because of the laws of life and science and chemistry, and he created all of those things, but does not manually make them occur. They just do out of what they were designed to do.. and not specifically to injur or cause pain.. <br /><br />Ugh, I really am clueless. My God ideas change daily, it seems.. but I can't *not* believe.. there's something deep inside that won't let me.. and I'm comfortable with that I suppose.christinahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16320601664722417404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-73837632001248355972010-06-28T07:42:26.515-05:002010-06-28T07:42:26.515-05:00Really good questions. I think people pray only t...Really good questions. I think people pray only to make themselves feel better. I believe in God and am christian and all that, but I don't often go to church just because of convenience reasons and the feeling that I don't need to go to a place to feel religious. I see church as a community basically.<br /><br />So that being said, I believe that things do happen for a reason. Even crappy things and when these crappy things happen they happen because we are meant to learn from them. We are meant to become stronger because of them. I think the hurting that comes after these crappy things is a very necessary thing. Hurting to the point of not being able to take it anymore and then we learn how to deal with the hurting so we become a stronger person. <br /><br />I don't think God is trying to "punish" people by doing bad things. I think it's just a part of life but I think there is a reason for it. Look at this blog. How many people you and Stevie have touched because it exists. There has to be a reason. At least that is what I believe.Lindsaynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-9493185016933945262010-06-27T23:48:59.799-05:002010-06-27T23:48:59.799-05:00I agree with those who say prayer is an open line ...I agree with those who say prayer is an open line of communication. Ive had plenty of instance in my life to want to turn away from God and basically my take on it is like any relationship. If you love God with all your heart you stick through the tough times because the good ones ar so worth it. Just like in marriage vows when you say for better or for worse, thats how I view my relationship with God. I still get angry often about the death of my brother, I know its not the same as a child but its the greatest loss I have personally endured. I guess I'm willing to trust God through that, because He is the same God who gave me my brother at all. His blessings in my life, far out weigh the pain. And I do belive God hears and asnwers prayers, there is a Bible Verse (forgive me for not knowing but I don't have it memorized and it would be fake of me to go look it off and play it off like I do) That says God will give his followers (those who bring glroy I think it says) the desires of thier hearts. Its a strong verse for me. Even if praying isn't in your heart right now, I Pray for you as I know so many are doing, and as a child of God he still knows the desires of your heart wether you express them to him or not. I pray God blesses you abundantly, not that any blessing will outweigh the loss of your baby girl, but that you may have a blessed life until you can hold your girl again.Ashleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16694690173690145270noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-31694120992460310162010-06-27T22:49:44.650-05:002010-06-27T22:49:44.650-05:00So, I am no great theologan (actually, I am not ev...So, I am no great theologan (actually, I am not even sure I spelled it correctly) but I feltp compelled to answer. In my opinion prayer isn't just about getting what you ask for, it's more about having a conversation with God. I think about it like when I have a conversation with my husband. Sometimes I get what I want out of the conversatio and sometimes I don't, but I am always better off for having talked to him. As for God changing His mind, I don't think He does. I think that we are the ones that have the freedom to choose who we will serve and how we are going to act, but God never wavers. I don't know if I am making sense and I am in bed, in the dark so I don't have my Bible with me to give you any solid "evidence" but I can tell you that on my blog I am doing a "Study" on the book "21 reason bad things happen to good people" and I would love for you to check out the links that I have already done (or get the book) I think you would really find it interesting!! I hope you find some of the peace you are looking for! Thinking of you and your Stevie tonight!Britthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03453298373390957941noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-32783615931638518262010-06-27T22:35:27.958-05:002010-06-27T22:35:27.958-05:00I haven't been through something similar to wh...I haven't been through something similar to what you have, dear, but I can only comment from someone who has experienced chronic pain for years now, from high school on "officially." I've been much too close to dying myself more times than I can count, and I've asked "why me?" more times than I'd care to admit.<br /><br />To me, prayer is an expression of faith, of belief. It's not always a belief that God will heal you, but that I believe whatever happens, He will help me through it regardless of how it turns out. I've seen my father have medical miracles occur with his cancer; he's been fighting for nearly 14 years when they initially gave him 5, if that. If nothing else, seeing him continue to have to fight the cancer at all growing up helped me to prepare for my own struggles medically, though it's still hard. I still get angry, get upset, get confused with why these things happen, but I have to remind myself that what happens is something I cannot change, and I can only hope to have the strength and faith to get through it.Kathyhttp://fullofsurprisesknc.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-82229559999317210342010-06-27T22:22:13.366-05:002010-06-27T22:22:13.366-05:00I think I might just have to write an answering bl...I think I might just have to write an answering blog to this. I can't sum it all up here.Emilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17587287197734518952noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-28122810863746801032010-06-27T20:00:01.063-05:002010-06-27T20:00:01.063-05:00Kristin,
I have had a hard time with prayer ever s...Kristin,<br />I have had a hard time with prayer ever since the miscarriage as well. I was lying in a hospital bed getting ready to go into emergency surgery, and my husband asked if I wanted to pray. I looked at him and said no. I was mad. I was really mad at God. Why would he do that to me? I was just raging. My husband gently held my hand and prayed out loud. At first, I was so angry, but as he prayed, I had an overwhelming sense of calm come over me. I dont know if that was his presence or just the words, but it helped.<br /><br />To me, prayer is an open line of communication between me and God. I used to try to say the right words, ask for the right things. But, in church recently, we had a wonderful speaker, that said we are praying with an orphan spirit, begging and asking for things that he already knows we want/need. So now I talk to God when I pray. My first prayer of my own from the miscarriage opened with " Im mad at you." and every now and again I feel like I hear that small voice saying ' Im still here and I love you"<br /><br />I have always struggled with the idea that the God that sacrificed his own son for us would be ok with horrible things happening to us. Why does a mother lose their child? Why are children abducted and beaten? When people say "everything happens for a reason", it drives me up the wall. What reason could there possibly be for those things? We had a service a few months ago, and the pastor said things DO NOT happen for a reason. God doesn't say I want this horrible thing to happen to this person/family. Our world is horribly horribly broken. Ever since that orginal sin, and were given free will, horrible things have happened to people over and over again. He doesn't make the decisions that cause us trauma, heart break. Those things are a result of being in a broken world, or a result of someone elses free will. God plays a role in the aftermath. He didn't make those things happen, but he is there for us in the wake of the event to hold our hand and help us through. THAT I could understand. <br /><br />I think the Christian walk is a hard one, its not a leisurely stroll on a smooth path, but one that is rocky and torturous at times. But knowing that there is someone there to help us when we fall, thats a huge blessing...<br /><br />I hope that you find some peace in your walk soon. I can't imagine how hard it must be...Mistyhttp://ramblingsofeverydaymom.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-12805155437494290322010-06-27T19:44:59.152-05:002010-06-27T19:44:59.152-05:00Kristin, I have a lot of struggle with this too. I...Kristin, I have a lot of struggle with this too. I was raised Catholic, did all the Sunday school, got confirmed, all of that and then once that happened, I just kind of stopped going to church. I think the Sunday school to me felt more like a hassle to anything else and later on, I had to go to school after school- what kid wants to do that???! So, church & God was never really something my life revolved around, especially as I got older. Then this happened & it kind of made me wonder. I'm still looking for answers to all of this too. If you find any...let me know!Maggiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13339073098081631983noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-25896431294957446302010-06-27T19:26:40.455-05:002010-06-27T19:26:40.455-05:00It's funny that you posted this just today. M...It's funny that you posted this just today. My husband and I decided last night that we would go to Church today. I was raised Catholic (husband was not...at all) and he wasn't too eager to go to a Catholic Church. Anyway, he did end up agreeing. I would have gone to a different Church, but I don't know anything else. So I thought being in the Catholic Church, on my knees, in one of the many aisles of pews...that I would feel some comfort. Well, I didn't find out because I couldn't bring myself to go this morning. My husband was up and ready to go and I just couldn't do it. I don't know why...but I'm sure it has something to do with what you wrote in your blog. I ask myself those same questions everyday and I just don't have an answer. The only thing that makes any kind of sense (but not much) to me comes from one of the many books on grief that I have read. It said something along the lines of "God didn't have a hand in you losing your child. The only thing God can do is give you the ability to reproduce, the power to conceive. Once you conceive, nature takes over." Hmmm...well that just opens up a new can of worms because I read many blogs of women really struggling to conceive. They have been trying for years, with the help of doctors, but nothing works. So that shoots what that book said all to hell. I find prayer 'uncomfortable.' I do it. For myself and others. But mostly only when things aren't going so well. I was on my knees at my bedside the other night praying for the health of a friend of mine. I don't really think I was praying to <br />God though. It was more just a plea that I wanted to throw out to the universe or something. I know that sounds weird. But I don't know how else to explain it. I could go on and on and on...but the bottom line is that I'm just as confused as you. And I don't know that we'll ever find our answer, because the truth is that nothing will ever make us feel 'okay' about losing our babies. It's always going to be unfair and it's always going to break our hearts, no matter what answers we may find out about God.Kelleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08873287888689350939noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3719166953467554528.post-42758302289496553202010-06-27T19:20:56.859-05:002010-06-27T19:20:56.859-05:00Kristin -
Many of the same questions have kept m...Kristin - <br /><br />Many of the same questions have kept me up at night and shaken my faith to the core over the past year. Please know that these questions are so important to ask, and when you don't have the strength to pray, there are so many people who are praying for you.<br /><br />One of the books that has been helpful to me in processing God's involvement in my life and in my pain is Jerry Sittser's book, "A Grace Disguised." I won't even try to unpackage it here because he does such an excellent job. If you don't have it, I'd love to mail you a copy. Let me know!<br /><br />Much Love, <br />CourtneyShaun and Courtneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13628040168436019030noreply@blogger.com