Thursday, October 7, 2010

Hopping on the Bandwagon

Dear Stevie,
Everyone seems to be doing this 30-day blog challenge thing, so I figured I should hop on the bandwagon and give it a shot. I'm like a week behind, so these first few answers are going to be pretty short and to the point. No one give me too much crap if I get to day 16ish and decide I'm bored (or forget about it altogether!)

Day 1 - a song that reminds you of your child, or one that you can't listen to anymore and why.

I used to play 'Isn't she Lovely' by Stevie Wonder for you all the time, pretty much since the day we found out you were a girl. I'd put my iPhone on my belly and let you dance around to your namesake on repeat. I loved it because Stevie Wonder is blind, but he's singing about how beautiful and lovely his daughter is. That's how I felt about you, baby. I knew you were the most beautiful little girl, even though I hadn't seen you yet. For awhile, I couldn't listen to that song again because it just made me too sad. Now it still makes me tear up, but in more of a good way.

Day 2 - a movie that helped you get through the hard times, or one that jumps out at you after your loss.

Right after you died, the only movies I would watch were really stupid/ridiculous action movies. That's all I could handle, movies that allowed for no thinking or use of the brain. We watched every Steven Segal movie streaming on Netflix, then moved onto Jean Claude Van Damme. I can still remember the worst one of all was called 'Replicant,' It was so bad, in fact, it was the first thing to make me laugh after coming home from the hospital. The tag line was "The future's most ruthless killer... to destroy him, they had to create him." I'll let you imagine how horrible it is.

Day 3 - a television program that helped you either get through hard times or that moves you.

Six words. Law and Order: Special Victims Unit. The day I realized Netflix had 10 seasons streaming was a good, good day.

Day 4 - your favorite book. has it changed since your loss?

My favorite book is Hemmingway's 'The Sun Also Rises,' followed closely behind by Twain's 'Adventures of Huckleberry Finn (give me a break, I was an English major!) Those have no changed. One book that has been added to my long list of favorites since you died is Elizabeth McCracken's 'An Exact Replica of a Figment of my Imagination.' To be honest, I was really not into any of the other books about baby loss I tried reading. But she is an amazing writer and it's an amazing book, even for the non-blms of the world.

Day 5 - your favorite quote.

Oh boy. This changes like every week, sometimes every day. Just recently I saw a quote on the Compassionate Friends Facebook page that I really love. "Grief with purpose is an awesome force." I think this is so true, and I've definitely felt it in my own life as of late. How many amazing, beautiful things have been started as a result of horrible, painful tragedy? Grief can be such a powerful force. One to be reckoned with for sure.

Day 6 - twenty things that calm you.

Oh fun, I love lists.
  • Writing
  • My dogs
  • Chai tea lattes
  • Jack Johnson
  • Long showers
  • Hugs from Andy
  • My favorite movie, 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind'
  • Taking pictures
  • A big plate of cheese and crackers
  • Red wine
  • Ansel Adams
  • Radiohead
  • Walks
  • Tandem bike rides
  • Candy
  • Naps
  • Blankets
  • Snow
  • Candles
  • Soup
Day 7 - a photo that makes you happy.

This is the first day I really started noticing my bump with you. :) I think was around 15 weeks. I was just feeling so good. So happy.

Here's what's to come this month. Get excited people!

Day 8 - a photo that makes you angry/sad.
Day 9 - a photo you took since your loss.
Day 10 - a photo taken over 10 years ago of you and how it makes you feel seeing it now.
Day 11 - a photo of you recently and how it makes you feel seeing it now.
Day 12 - something you are OCD about.
Day 13 - a fictional book that is meaningful to you since your loss.
Day 14 - a non-fictional book that is meaningful to you since your loss.
Day 15 - what you like about your house.
Day 16 - a song that makes you cry (or nearly).
Day 17 - an art piece (drawing, sculpture, painting, etc) that moves you.
Day 18 - my wedding/future wedding/past wedding.
Day 19 - a talent of yours.
Day 20 - a hobby of yours and how it changed since your loss.
Day 21 - a recipe.
Day 22 - a website that has been meaningful since your loss.
Day 23 - a youtube video that makes you laugh.
Day 24 - where you live
Day 25 - your day, in great detail
Day 26 - your week, in great detail
Day 27 - your worst habit since your child's death.
Day 28 - what's in your handbag/purse
Day 29 - hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 - a dream for the future


Trena said...

Betsy & Kurt said...

Hey! Do you know where the challenge originated from?

Catherine W said...

Beautiful song. Makes me tear up too.

Lilly's Mom (Desiree) said...

aw yay! glad you decided to join in the fun :)

butterflymom said...

:) So glad you are doing this!! :)

Lisette said...

I still haven't joined this but I love to read everyone's posts. I love your baby bump picture, it is too cute!

Maggie said...

Glad you're joining in! :) Love your answers!

Kathy Knox said...

Oooh, you're a Radiohead fan, huh? :) Rock on, rock on.
And Stevie Wonder is always a favourite.

Lori said...

I'll have that song in my head all day now and love it!!!!

That picture of you is just precious. You seriously look just usual!

PrincessKalico said...

I absolutely love that photo of you. lol It made me happy too. :) I think I may start doing this 30 day challenge also.

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