Wednesday, May 19, 2010


Dear Stevie,
We are blessed to have so many friends and family that love and care about us. The last couple weeks we've gotten lots of cards, flowers, and other sympathy gifts. It means so much to Dad and I to know your life touched so many people. Today I got a really special necklace in the mail from my Aunt (my mom, your Grandma's sister) and I just wanted to share it with you.

Not gonna lie, I'd give anything to trade all my flowers and sympathy/memorial gifts for a few baby shower gifts for you, but it is so nice to know people care and are thinking of us.

Today we also got a card from Dad's students. I'm sure he has no idea, but one of them wrote what may have touched me the most for some reason:

"Andy, I'm very sorry for you and your wife's lost (I'll ignore the poor grammar here just this once, ha). I kind of understand how you feel a little bit cause I lost someone that meant a lot to me but I know you and your wife are gonna have a blessing coming towards yall way. I wish you guys luck for the future. God bless!"

God I hope he's right, that there really is a blessing coming our way. The hope that I might get another shot at being a mom again someday is one of the only things keeping me going these days.

Love you forever,

Ps. I'm eating Sour Patch Kids right now and remembering how crazy you'd go for those. Wish you could share them with me.


margaret said...

Oh Mama, I wish so much that I could reach out and hug you. I'm so sorry Stevie passed away, there's nothing more devastating than the loss of a child, a much loved and wanted child. To live through such a loss is hard enough, I can't imagine how you felt losing her right before Mother's Day. My heart absolutely aches for you and your husband. Welcome to this grim club, you will find support beyond your expectations through some of the most beautiful mothers here on the internet who can understand and relate to the horrible pain you're feeling. Please know you are not alone in that pain and if there is anything I can do to help ease your journey, a willing ear to listen or shoulder to cry on, please don't hesitate to let me know...Much love to you...

Kelley and Chris said...

I came across your story on BBC and my heart is breaking for you. My little boy was born still on April 1st, 2010. I was almost 23 weeks pregnant. I'm so sorry you are going through this as well. I know how awful it is and you are not alone. Sending hugs your way...

Maggie said...

Margaret said it right! The support you find on here is amazing and one of the best things I have found! We all understand each other and the people I've met here feel like family. You are not alone in this journey. If you ever need anything, let me know. (((HUGS)))

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