Dear Stevie,
You’ve been gone for a little over three weeks now. Your mom and I watched the sequel to The Lost Boys last night. There were a few cool scenes, but the lead vampire wasn’t nearly as sexy as Keifer in the original. They used a Hold Steady song in the credits that I didn’t expect to hear. The last time I listened to that song, it was on repeat while I pieced together your crib. We haven’t taken anything down in your room and when I went in there this morning before your mom was awake, it gave me an odd feeling. Someone (I think it was my cousin Christa) wrote in an email to your mom that when kids die before they are born, that their souls come back in future kids. I don’t really care to think about whether or not that lines up with what I believe religiously or if I think it would be physically possible. The oddness that I felt when I walked into your room came from a feeling that you might not be gone forever. Your body was taken by a freak blood clot and it’s been a confusing mess, but does that mean that you were just a stillborn, partially developed baby, end of story? I’d certainly like to think not. Who were you? I like to think I might find out some day…
-Dad
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I think about the souls of our babies also - and I've never been able to come up with a definitive answer. No matter what the answer is, I know Stevie will always be a part of you. Always.
Joseph Smith taught the doctrine that the infant child that was laid away in death would come up in the resurrection as a child; and, pointing to the mother of a lifeless child, he said to her: ‘You will have the joy, the pleasure, and satisfaction of nurturing this child, after its resurrection, until it reaches the full stature of its spirit.’ There is restitution, there is growth, there is development, after the resurrection from death. I love this truth. It speaks volumes of happiness, of joy and gratitude to my soul.
Salvation of Little Children
By Elder Bruce R. McConkie
of the Council of the Twelve
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